Olivia Watney – On finding your own family
My name is Olivia Watney I am twenty-three years old. I grew up in Africa and I am half English half Spanish. A bit chaotic. Now I am living in Barcelona I work in the design crew of Cortana. A female clothing line. And I consider myself a bit of a multidisciplinary artist. I do a bit of everything. I draw a lot, I work as a model sometimes, I design…whatever comes from inside. I am a very expressive person. I am very hyperactive. So drawing and art, in general, help me relax a lot. Which does me good. So this is a bit of what I do.
Tell us about a transformative moment:
I think that moment came when I was pretty small and my father died. As a kid, I was a bit weird and strange. I didn’t like other children and preferred to be surrounded by adults. I was a bit antisocial. I feel like I matured very early on and knew from a young age exactly what I wanted. I was in a weird place since I knew exactly what I wanted but I didn’t have the proper support system around me. Obviously, after the yeas passed I did find a group of peace who got me, understood me. Before that everybody thought that I was crazy. And I think that through finding people who do what you do helps you find yourself which encourages you to evolve as a person. Finding like-minded people helped me transition into who I am today.
Share with us difficult moment and how you got out of it:
I had a couple ( laughs )
As I am a person with too much energy. I am high up here ( gestures with hand over her head) I plummet extremely ( gestures with hand below her waist).
So I have encountered a lot of situations where I was unable to find myself. A bit depressed. And I think what has always helped me to get out of that has been working. Being able to express me. Drawing, designing, taking pictures…I think it helped with my self-esteem. And the people who love you who support you and don’t judge you and love you for who you are. Which I think is the most beautiful, to find people who REALLY love you and who value you.
Because family is important but to me, the most important thing is the family that you have chosen for yourself. Your friends and those you have a true connection with. So I think what has helped me the most with strong mood changes or depression has been the people who love you and support you. That when needed to drag you to where ever of you to feel good again.
What does being a woman mean to you?
Basically the body I have been born in. I think that we are all the same. I don’t believe in defining yourself through the genitalia or other parts of our bodies. I thank God that we live in a city, in a country where being a woman is okay to be. That this doesn’t bring inconveniences. If you go to a different country where being women is really shit. Like „ You’ve fucked up just being a woman“.
Why ? Because of society, because all of it is shit.
I do fell like things are changing a bit, because there are people who are fighting for their rights, raising their voices. We all have our rights and we shouldn’t get confined in them through gender. We are all the same.
But I love being a woman. When I was little I hated it. I always wanted to be a boy. And now as I am growing older, I start to like it more. I think we as women go through a rite of passage of extreme changes. Which can be a bit confusing for some. Now I am loving being a woman. I enjoy it a lot. I love the feminine body. I love women in general. I work for a brand that is all about „ We love women“ Everything is very united. But I feel there is still a lot to be done and that there is a still a long road to travel.
But as long as we stick together everything will get better.But now I am very happy with the body that I was given. And that’s it ( giggles)
What would you tell your fourteen-year-old self?
I would reassure myself that I will indeed find ” my kind“ of people. People who understand me and share my kind of crazy. That I won´t be that judged and that everything will turn out alright.
I have a very „ be in the moment“ kind of philosophy and sometimes that works and sometimes it doesn’t. Until now that has been working pretty well for me so .. I would tell fourteen-year-old Olivia to do what her heart is asking her to and that is the right path to take.
Because that is what I have always done and at least for the moment things are going pretty well.
Obviously, I have messed up a couple of situations, but those are things you can’t change.To follow my gut feeling. What the body is asking you to do, you should do. So, just to keep doing what comes out of me.
Why is it important to love yourself?
Because if you don’t love yourself, no one will. I think. There is a reality show called Ru Paul’s Drag Race. And his main sentences is „ If you can’t love yourself how the hell are you going to love somebody else „. Well, that’s actually the other way around but I think you get the gist of what I’m trying to say.
I think self-love is very important because it becomes also an energy you give off. When you meet people who are very insecure, with self-esteem issues. It reflects upon the person. And maybe it’s not so much loving yourself as it is believing in yourself. I prefer that word.
I think you give off different vibes. Nobody wants to be around somebody who is moping all the time.
I think loving yourself is basic. It is basic because. We live in the body that was given to us and if don’t look for the tools to love you your going to hate yourself all your life. So it is petter to strip yourself from your own judgment and learn to be happy with what was given to you. No matter how many surgeries and other enhancement or changes you might perform on yourself, in the end, the most beautiful thing is to look yourself into the mirror and be able to say: „ Good“
What I like the most is also what I like the least about myself. Which is the amount of energy that I have? I have a lot, too much actually I could distribute a bit to a lot of people but I also think that I give a lot of energy. O r at least that’s what I have been told. There are people who have loads of energy but they seem to exhaust you when you are near them that drain you of yours. I believe that I supply you with more energy. It is something that I was told just recently. Those typical things you kind of know in the back of your head but until somebody doesn’t tell you- are not completely aware of it. And I think it is one of the most beautiful things that have ever been said to me. That I give a lot of vitality and energy and good vibes. And right now is what I most love about myself. the energy I think I give off.